It Gets Better

So this week I was thinking about all these tragic deaths. Maybe you don't know what is going on currently, but a couple of young kids in their teens have been ending their lives because of bullying. Bullying seems to be a common problem when ignorant people are scared of something. It's horrible to think that fear could be the end of a typically accepting race. Humans can usually be peaceful if they understand something. And when something that can't really be explained arises then bad things end up happening. That's just cause and effect people...

We need to start standing behind these young people because you can't always be strong enough to do it yourself. We all need help if we admit it and have a place to admit it that is accepting. Why can't we be accepting even if we don't understand how to? It's easy just be there. Be someone that will listen and cut the person that is dealing with difficult stuff like their sexual orientation some slack. They need a break. It breaks my heart to see these young people hurting themselves simply because they don't think they have a place to go. They should have a place to go because everyone should have a safe place to go. Not because they are different, because they really aren't. I know I'm no different then the next block down the hall. I'm openly gay and I know what's like to feel unattached from society. I used to call myself not normal and it took me a long time to come out even to my closest friend, my sister. I knew she would accept me, but even with that confidence in the back of my head I thought, maybe she wouldn't. She did though. I wrote it down on a piece of paper while we were hanging out in her room one day when I was in ninth grade. She didn't say anything. She wrote me a letter right there and then explaining that there were things that I need to think about, but what was more important no matter who I was she would love me. She always had. She told me in that letter that times were going to be hard, but they wouldn't be impossible and she said that the best thing was to not think about being GAY. It's probably the best advice I have ever received. Because that's exactly it, if you are who you are you shouldn't have to think about it or decide, because being you isn't a choice its a reality. It's an amazing reality because there is NO ONE like YOU. You are beautiful. I hope that you find someone to feel yourself around because excepting yourself alone can be really hard, but never impossible.

If you feel like you have no one then there are places to go and people to talk to that may have no relation to you that will help you. That will want to help you. Remember though that helping you doesn't mean you have a disorder that needs to be rid of no they want to help you be YOU. There are help lines for just talking if you can't do face to face. There are may options so don't think you are alone. Because it does get better. I'm in the period of transformation from good to bad. It's hard and slow at times, but there will be good days too. You just have to see it through the darkest days, because those are the times that stick with you, but you have to try and rid yourself of those times. I do that every day and my friends my family that I have created helps me do that. For example, I was having a low day and my best friend realized it. He had just gotten out of the shower and he turned on I Love You Always by Donna Lewis. He started doing a strip tease and wasn't paying attention and almost lost his towel. I never laughed so hard in my life. It made my day brighter, and whenever I'm upset I think of times like that. Try to find things in your day that do that too! It helps no matter how silly it sounds.

Now that ending your life isn't a solution it is just an action. It opens peoples eyes sometimes, but its better to make a stand and fight (peacefully) for what you deserve. Because they will notice you more if you stand up next to them. Show you aren't afraid as they are. I love you all whoever reads this, you are worth it, you deserve the best life, and you are beautiful. That message goes out to anyone, Labels don't matter, you do!