Incredible Lov

I love love. There are many different kinds of love and many different ways of showing love. But as a constant observer of this wonderful beautiful thing, I have found that the deepest is between that love that brings you total happiness. The thing about this type of love, this one love that everyone yearns for is terribly frightening to get too. No one knows if they have found it or if they have something like it or maybe they haven't found it at all and our simply faking the fact they "found it". The thing about this ONE love is that it is the most miraculous, who can say you haven't got it? Who can say they have? Instead of finding it, it just happens. When you aren't asking for it or wanting more out of love. It just happens. It comes up from behind you and embraces you and unless you let it go, it will stay forever. Because once it happens and the two people that are involved at that moment become one person. They don't change who they are individually they simply become something new that is even grander then they can realize. I call it that one love simply because it is above the rest. It makes everything else seem minimal. Once you find it, you can look at your life in the mirror and laugh at all the things that you once were so concerned about. I am not saying that someone should give up living. I'm just saying that you will give up thinking that everything is so important because in totally honesty, the things we are so concerned about before the one love comes along is just to make us not so concerned about not having the one love. I'm giving the L word a big ego and probably giving it to much credit, but I have seen love and felt it. It's warm and unbearably wrenching. It can turn a life around. It has the most power over our emotions and something that can literally control the ticking of our heart deserves a lot of credit and an even bigger ego. The great thing about love is that if that one love goes or stays love is still left inside you. Love never goes away, it doesn't turn on you. No people turn on you, but people also say and never let the love created go. The one love is created, combining individual love, while the love that lives inside us is our best friend.

I was told by someone that I loved that I was unlovable, I was helpless. Maybe for now that is true, but you can become lovable again. You just have to find where it went, where your personal love went. Once you find that, love can be created love can be given and received. Another friend would call me mushy for bringing any of this up, but deep down I know they think the same things, they are just protecting themselves. For me, the love I have in my hands is then I can handle and so I give it out to my dearest friends. I may not show it enough to the person I need to when the time comes, but I have seen what its like to lose track of the love inside. So I bring it deeper inside as to not lose it. The thing we all need to learn. They thing we all need to see and feel and taste and touch and comprehend, is the fact that usually when you find out that you love someone. That you know 100% you love the other person and doing nothing at all, but having them two feet away, or snuggled up in your arms, or across the room cooking, that you honestly love them, that they aren't going anywhere either. They made the choice too. What's going through your head is going through theirs. They are afraid you will leave, that that love is going to be lost. That they are going to have to start again and find themselves. But at that point, you need to stand your ground, see what's more important, which is more important. The love or yourself. That will define it, that will show you the time that needs to be spent with this love you have created. It is the hardest question that will probably ever be asked by everyone throughout the ages. But it is one that you answer on your own. You then have to believe that the choice you make is the right one and when it comes time that you know it is or isn't meant to last, it will come to an end or never end. It's confusing and it's hard, but we all know or at least have some inkling of what I'm saying, the key is you have to want to realize that what I'm saying we all have to do.

A friend like myself, the one that has always been there for the talks, the chatter before in the middle and in the end, that friend that me in your life, will always be there, but they can't I can't make the choice for you. If only the friend that me could, but sadly we can't. We are merely people, bystanders watching the love that is created and yearned for and held...